What the fuck am I doing? Honestly, I do not have an answer to this or many other of my questions about life.
Sometimes life is hard, yall. I work in a role that constantly holds me to challenge others. These challenges may be to take a leap of faith, to try something new, or to be a better leader. Holding others accountable and challenging them is a constant reminder of why I must also challenge myself. I am a learner by nature and I constantly crave new challenges and experiences. Which leads me to think and wonder and ponder questions about life.
What The Fuck Am I Doing?
Recently, I was blessed with a challenge that has me constantly asking myself “what the fuck am I doing?” (Mom, if you’re reading this, sorry for the harsh language, but this is my blog and, thus, my raw, unfiltered thoughts.) It’s not easy for me to admit that I don’t know what I’m doing and I don’t know what is next for me in life. I just know that something new is coming and the time for change is now.
I suppose this is an open letter to myself.
Take that leap of faith and just fucking do it. Remember your word of the year is SPARK!
So yes, I’m still wondering WTF am I doing. I have a ton of other questions too.
Questions About Life
What is most important to me in life?
What’s going to matter most to me when I’m 80?
When I look back at my life when it’s my time, what will mean the most to me?
What the hell do I have all this crap cluttering up my house?
When will I have time to clean?
What’s more important: this or that?
When will I make time to move?
Why can’t I be skinny like I was in college? Even though I still thought I was fat back then.
What am I supposed to be doing?
Will this lead me closer to my ultimate goal?
WTF is my ultimate goal?
Overthinking is A Bitch
Yall. Your mind is a beast. And if you let it worry, it will take over your entire day. Keep your mind occupied with doing something instead of letting it stew on thoughts. Why does your mind make it so easy to second guess yourself all the time? Seriously. WTF?! When I’m in a mindset rut, I like to refer to these 50 Mindset Quotes!
Let’s challenge each other to take the leap of faith, to grab life by the balls, to tackle changes, to live without regret. Who’s in???3